Thursday, October 1, 2015

:: Missing This Space::

I was reading back on my past posts, especially in 2011 as I was looking for the name of the shop that I bought my wedding favours in Nilai 3. Oh well, could not find it but instead I found out how I miss writing again. Looking at the journey of getting engaged and married, the preparation that went into it, the details, I was feeling melancholic. I would not have remembered anything if it was not for my writing back then.

I’ve been writing since high school and had numerous blogs; you should know if you have been following me back then. All about high school, love life (only one man for the past 12 years *gasps*), university life, studies and arguments and girlfriends, graduation and work, engagement and marriage even up to having a baby.
Don’t you feel that, you have grown up with me?
I missed a couple of years of updates and of course Audreyna’s development (my feisty 3 years old).
But today, let me start with this second pregnancy.
I wanted my babies to have a 2 year gap between them, but God has a better plan and decided that I should be pregnant this year. I found out I was pregnant on Nally’s birthday. We were at Cameron Highland celebrating his birthday. Because this was a planned pregnancy (meaning I’ve timed my ovulation date, were keeping track of my basal temperature, were super alert to any changes in my body every month, doctor’s check-up monthly to check on the eggs), I had an inkling that THIS IS THE MONTH.
I didn’t tell Nally of course. I told him to stop by the pharmacy on the way there because I forgot to bring shampoo and whatnot ( excuses, excuses), and later that evening as I was so impatient (I didn’t even missed my period yet, it was due a day after), I did the test. At first it only showed one line, I was understandably upset, sitting alone in the bathroom with Nally asking what was I doing in there as he had to use the toilet.
Thankfully, I didn’t immediately throw the test away. As I wanted to open the door, I saw a faint double line. I know it was a double line as I’ve been waiting for more than a year to see that, so even though it was faint at first, it gets darker. There’s no mistake. I AM FINALLY PREGNANT!!!!!!
I think that’s the best birthday present I could give Nally this year ;) although he’s complaining he had to wait 10 months for the actual present to arrive. This baby is due next month I can’t hardly believe it.
Current week: 34 weeks
Gender: A BOY ( I was quite confident about this as this was a planned pregnancy so I was aiming for a boy, Alhamdullilah)
Baby’s Weight: 1.6kg
Mummy’s weight: 57kg.
This bit is stressful for me. With Audreyna the heaviest I was, was 54kg so it was super easy to slim down during confinement. I was slim during confinement and now a little bit doubtful I can get my weight back. I feel so FAT.
This tummy may look small but I’m feeling so heavy, large, uncomfortable, having backaches constantly and every day, every minute, walking like a penguin, sleepy all the time, bathroom trip every few minutes, eating like there’s no tomorrow and of course this pregnancy hormone makes me forget things. I AM FORGETFUL these days. *sigh*. Oh, and easily annoyed and cranky.
Oh well, this post is long enough for my first 2015 post.
Hello 2015. You are almost ending and I am just starting.
And also because Nally told me to write again.

Love,
Aneesa